For those who have been reading this blog for sometime, I have decided to remove all the previous entries to protect my privacy as someone has been copying and saving every entry on this blog. I believe this is an infringement of privacy and my right.

These are my words. They were born out of my heart. No one has the right to keep them. If you do, you may, but respect me, ask me, you may have them if I give them you.

I am still disappointed by the attitude of some people. I believe someone who pretends to be good and "a friend" to me is stabbing me in the back. For this particular person, I feel deeply sorry - a pathetic individual indeed. Obviously one who has a warped sense of justice.

Some people do not understand (are quite limited in their grasp on life and the world) that what happens (and have happened) behind closed "marital" doors is sacred experience (good and bad). What I had to endure (for multitude of reasons and to a large extent by the pressure of circumstances) was not something which some people could imagine nor would ever wished on their daughter(s), sister(s), mother(s) or friend(s).

I am not asking for sympathy. Sympathy is for the weak.

But I expect understanding. It is a gift. I expected decency and a little bit of common sense. I expected humility. I expected love.

Let it be known that I shall bear no grudges as each of us have to walk our own path in life. We know our own truth.

This blog for what it was worth was my support mechanism which had helped me through difficult moments as an outlet and space for expression.

I am happy that the La Vie en Rouge epoque, the space it was for me to seek and find comfort in the hope that there is someone out there who could read between the lines, who could listen to my cries and who could understand my frustrations, is now gone. It is perhaps symbolic of the way my life has evolved. For what it is worth, I am glad for the way it has turned out. This place was the rubbish bin of my aching soul and mind, and still it was a secret treasure island on the web.

Thank you for those who has been reading LVeR since 2003 and others who became loyal readers. Some of you had left kind words of supports and messages too. If you must know, despite the weirdness of the blog world (where people somewhat feel connected or that they feel like they know each other just being reading words and seeing pictures), I am very thankful.

If you want to continue reading (for what its worth) on my (new) private space on the net please leave an email address in the comment box. And I shall decide who would have the priviledge to my mind and my soul. As you can imagine, trust is a rare commodity in a world where most people have lost their sense of justice.

All the best and lots of love from the bottom of my "once" broken heart. I shall go on living. Once upon a time, many moons ago, a friend of mine once told me that "A woman with a fire in her heart will always win through". I believe her because I have the proof that I have won.

The prize for my triumph: I was kissed by God.

To the rest of you, so long. May you live and learn. Life is never as you expected and not all of us are blessed. Your day will come.